At the beginning of last month, I did my usual check in with a well-known astrologer's horoscopes. This time, the gist of it was, and I'm only being slightly dramatic, "Your month is going to totally suck and be filled with setbacks in every area of your life, so good luck with that." I got to the end and wondered, "wtf was that?! Am I just supposed to sit around anticipating disaster for the next 30 days?"
Now, I'm usually very into all the 'scopes; I find them interesting and illuminating, and I like to keep up with the cosmic weather since it shows up in a major way in my clients' experiences. But this one just felt....gross. It wasn't that the horoscope wasn't filled with cookies, pats on the back, and fake positivity, since I'm comfortable with complexity and can swim in the murk when it's asked of me. It was that there was nothing empowering or helpful about it. Just a checklist of astrological events, and how they were all conspiring to negatively affect my business and love life and health and home and family and so on, the end. Perhaps the writer thought that would be helpful in and of itself, I wondered? But I decided then that it was time for a cleanse -- an astrology cleanse. No more input from other people about what's going on in my universe and my experience. Only taking in info from the ultimate expert on me -- my own intuition.
So if I've seemed insensitive or out of touch over the past couple of months when the eclipses were ripping through your life, I sincerely apologize, but that's why -- I've kind of been under a "what eclipse?!" rock. I don't think it's a coincidence that July turned out to be amazing. I spent no minutes anticipating disaster. I observed no setbacks, only ease and expansion. I went to the beach a lot. I connected, I laughed, and I lived. Some family wounds healed while I wasn't watching, to my great surprise. I worked, and it was a joy, and business kept on growing. Thank Goddess.
I'm mentioning this not because you shouldn't read horoscopes, but because I think it's important to ask, given the level of consumption of opinions and interpretations that we are constantly taking in -- is this truly *for* me? Is this information supporting me in navigating life with ease, helping me heal myself and my communities, expanding my capacity to love and be loved?
If you're getting a no, you can let it go. Because not all things are for us; that's why there are so many different people offering different takes on things. Because wonderful things still manage to happen during eclipses and retrogrades (and who knows what other astrological events, because I haven't been paying attention). Because the world can appear to be on a loving upswing while you're in pain, and you can be having the time of your life while other people's lives are being dismantled. And other people's takes on things can be helpful...until they're not. Until we use them to tune out our own inner knowing.
I'm sure I'll come back into that intense curiosity about astrological happenings at some point, probably sooner than I think, but for now, I am enjoying being on a break from expecting other people tell me what the vibes are in my own life all the time. I am enjoying doing my own work to discover what the cosmic weather is, and noticing my lessons as they appear, and listening to my intuition for support with navigating life.